§11.22.1diligenter mihi fasciculum reddidit Balbi tabellarius.
Balbus' letter-carrier delivered the packet to me with care.
accepi enim a te litteras quibus videris vereri ut epistulas illas acceperim.
Indeed, I received a letter from you in which you seem to fear that I did not receive those letters.
quas quidem vellem mihi numquam redditas; auxerunt enim mihi dolorem nec, si in aliquem incidissent, quicquam novi attulissent.
I wish indeed that they had never been delivered to me; for they increased my grief, and even if they had fallen into anyone's hands, they would not have brought anything new.
quid enim tam pervulgatum quam illius in me odium et genus hoc litterarum? quod ne Caesar quidem ad istos videtur misisse, quasi qui illius improbitate offenderetur, sed, credo, uti notiora nostra mala essent.
For what is so well known as his hatred towards me and this kind of letter? This, it seems, not even Caesar sent to those people as if he were offended by his wickedness, but rather, I believe, so that our troubles might be more widely known.
nam quod te vereri scribis ne illi obsint eique rei me vis mederi, ne rogari quidem se passus est de illo.
For as to what you write that you fear they may harm him and want me to remedy that matter, he did not even allow himself to be petitioned about him.
quod quidem mihi molestum non est; illud molestius, istas impetrationes nostras nihil valere.
This indeed is not annoying to me; what is more annoying is that those entreaties of ours have no weight.
§11.22.2Sulla, ut opinor, cras erit hic cum Messalla.
Sulla, I believe, will be here tomorrow with Messalla.
currunt ad illum pulsi a militibus qui se negant usquam, nisi acceperint.
They are rushing to him, driven away by the soldiers who say they will not move anywhere unless they receive their pay.
ergo ille huc veniet, quod non putabant, tarde quidem.
Therefore he will come here, which they did not think, though slowly indeed.
itinera enim ita facit ut multos dies in †oppidum† ponat.
For he makes his journeys in such a way that he spends many days in a town.
Pharnaces autem, quoquo modo aget, adferet moram.
Pharnaces, however, in whatever way he acts, will cause delay.
quid mihi igitur censes? iam enim corpore vix sustineo gravitatem huius caeli quae mihi languorem adfert in dolore.
What then do you advise me? For I can now hardly support with my body the heaviness of this climate, which brings weariness to me in my grief.
an his illuc euntibus mandem ut me excusent, ipse accedam propius? quaeso, attende et me, quod adhuc saepe rogatus non fecisti, consilio iuva.
Or should I commission those who are going there to excuse me, and myself move closer? Please pay attention, and help me with your advice, which you have not done though often asked hitherto.
scio rem difficilem esse, sed ut in malis etiam illud mea magni interest te ut videam.
I know that the matter is difficult, but, as is possible in our troubles, it is of great importance to me that I see you.
profecto aliquid profecero, si id acciderit.
Surely I shall have made some progress if that happens.
de testamento, ut scribis, animadvertes.
Concerning the will, as you write, you will attend to it.