§11.21.1accepi vi Kal. Sept. litteras a te datas xii Kal. doloremque quem ex Quinti scelere iam pridem acceptum iam abieceram, lecta eius epistula gravissimum cepi.
On August 27 I received your letter sent on August 21, and the very heavy grief which had arisen long ago from Quintus' wickedness, and which I had already cast aside, I conceived anew in its heaviest form upon reading his letter.
tu etsi non potuisti ullo modo facere ut mihi illam epistulam non mitteres, tamen mallem non esse missam.
Although you could in no way avoid sending me that letter, yet I should have preferred that it had not been sent.
ad ea autem quae scribis de testamento, videbis quid et quo modo.
As to what you write concerning the will, you will see to what should be done and in what manner.
de nummis et illa sic scripsit ut ego ad te antea, et nos, si quid opus erit, utemur ex eo de quo scribis.
Concerning the money, she too wrote in the same way as I did to you before, and we, if there is any need, will make use of that fund of which you write.
§11.21.2ille ad Kal. Sept. Athenis non videtur fore.
He does not seem likely to be in Athens by the Kalends of September.
multa eum in Asia dicuntur morari, maxime Pharnaces.
Many things are said to delay him in Asia, especially Pharnaces.
legio xii, ad quam primam Sulla venit, lapidibus egisse hominem dicitur.
The twelfth legion, to which Sulla first came, is said to have driven the man away with stones.
nullam putant se commoturam.
They think they will not stir at all.
illum arbitrabantur protinus Patris in Siciliam.
They thought he would go straight from Patrae to Sicily.
sed si hoc ita est, huc veniat necesse est.
But if this is so, he must come here.
ac mallem †illum†; aliquo enim modo hinc evasissem.
And I should have preferred that; for in some way I would have escaped from here.
nunc metuo ne sit exspectandum et cum reliquis etiam loci gravitas huic miserrimae perferenda.
Now I fear that I must wait, and that, along with the rest of my troubles, even the unhealthy climate of this place must be endured by this most wretched girl.
§11.21.3quod me mones ut ea quae agam ad tempus accommodem, facerem, si res pateretur et si ullo modo fieri posset.
As to your advising me to adapt my actions to the circumstances, I would do so if the situation allowed and if it were in any way possible.
sed in tantis nostris peccatis tantisque nostrorum iniuriis nihil est quod aut facere dignum nobis aut simulare possim.
But amid such great mistakes of mine and such great wrongs from my own people, there is nothing that I can either do or pretend that is worthy of us.
Sullana confers; in quibus omnia genere ipso praeclarissima fuerunt, moderatione paulo minus temperata.
You compare the Sullan times; in which everything was most noble in its very nature, though somewhat less tempered by moderation.
haec autem eius modi sunt ut obliviscar mei multoque malim quod omnibus sit melius quam quorum utilitatem meam iunxi.
But these present things are of such a kind that I forget myself, and much prefer what is better for all than what is better for those with whom I have joined my own interest.
tu ad me tamen velim quam saepissime scribas eoque magis quod praeterea nemo scribit ac, si omnes, tuas tamen maxime exspectarem.
Nevertheless, I would like you to write to me as often as possible, and all the more because besides you no one writes, and even if everyone did, I should still look forward to yours the most.
quod scribis illum per me Quinto fore placatiorem, scripsi ad te antea eum statim Quinto filio omnia tribuisse, nostri nullam mentionem.
As to your writing that he will be more appeased towards Quintus on my account, I wrote to you before that he immediately granted everything to the younger Quintus, making no mention of me.
vale.
Farewell.