§11.8.1quantis curis conficiar etsi profecto vides, tamen cognosces ex Lepta et Trebatio.
With how great cares I am consumed, although you indeed see it, you will nevertheless learn from Lepta and Trebatius.
maximas poenas pendo temeritatis meae quam tu prudentiam mihi videri vis; neque te deterreo quo minus id disputes scribasque ad me quam saepissime.
I am paying the greatest penalties for my rashness, which you wish to appear to me as prudence; nor do I deter you from discussing it and writing to me as often as possible.
non nihil enim me levant tuae litterae hoc tempore.
For your letters alleviate me not a little at this time.
per eos qui nostra causa volunt valentque apud illum diligentissime contendas opus est, per Balbum et Oppium maxime, ut de me scribant quam diligentissime.
It is necessary that you strive most diligently through those who wish us well and have influence with him, especially through Balbus and Oppius, so that they may write concerning me as diligently as possible.
oppugnamur enim, ut audio, et a praesentibus quibusdam et per litteras.
For we are being attacked, as I hear, both by certain persons present there and by letters.
iis ita est occurrendum ut rei magnitudo postulat.
These must be met as the magnitude of the matter demands.
§11.8.2Fufius est illic, mihi inimicissimus.
Fufius is there, most hostile to me.
Quintus misit filium non solum sui deprecatorem sed etiam accusatorem mei.
Quintus sent his son not only as an intercessor for himself but also as an accuser of me.
dictitat se a me apud Caesarem oppugnari, quod refellit Caesar ipse omnesque eius amici.
He keeps saying that he is being attacked by me before Caesar, which Caesar himself and all his friends refute.
neque vero desistit, ubicumque est, omnia in me maledicta conferre.
Nor indeed does he cease, wherever he is, to heap all kinds of abuse upon me.
nihil mihi umquam tam incredibile accidit, nihil in his malis tam acerbum.
Nothing so incredible has ever happened to me, nothing so bitter in these misfortunes.
qui ex ipso audissent cum Sicyone palam multis audientibus loqueretur nefaria quaedam, ad me pertulerunt.
Those who had heard from his own mouth when he was speaking certain wicked things openly at Sicyon, in the hearing of many, have reported it to me.
nosti genus, etiam expertus es fortasse.
You know the breed, perhaps you have even experienced it.
in me id est omne conversum.
It has all been turned against me.
sed augeo commemorando dolorem et facio etiam tibi.
But I increase my pain by mentioning it, and I cause it to you as well.
qua re ad illud redeo.
Therefore I return to that matter.
cura ut huius rei causa dedita opera mittat aliquem Balbus.
See to it that Balbus sends someone on purpose for the sake of this matter.
ad quos videbitur velim cures litteras meo nomine.
I would like you to arrange letters in my name to those to whom it shall seem fit.
vale.
Farewell.
xiii Kal. Ian.
December 17.