§3.6.1Foedus amicitiae nec vis, carissime, nostrae, §3.6.2nec, si forte velis, dissimulare potes, §3.6.3donec enim licuit, nec te mihi carior alter, §3.6.4nec tibi me tota iunctior urbe fuit, §3.6.5isque erat usque adeo populo testatus, ut esset §3.6.6paene magis quam tu quamque ego notus, amor; §3.6.7quique est in caris animi tibi candor amicis— §3.6.8cognita sunt ipsi, quem colis, ista viro.
My dearest friend, you do not wish, nor, even if by chance you should wish, are you able to dissimulate the bond of our friendship, for as long as it was permitted, no other was dearer to me, nor was anyone more closely joined to you than I in the whole city, and that love was so well attested to the people that it was almost more known than you and than I; and that sincerity of mind which you have toward dear friends— is known to the very man whom you cherish.
§3.6.9nil ita celabas, ut non ego conscius essem, §3.6.10pectoribusque dabas multa tegenda meis: §3.6.11cuique ego narrabam secreti quicquid habebam, §3.6.12excepto quod me perdidit, unus eras.
you used to conceal nothing in such a way that I was not sharing the knowledge of it, and you used to give many things to my heart to be kept secret: and I used to tell whatever secret I had to you, who were the only one, except for that which ruined me.
If you had known that too, you would be enjoying your companion safe, and I should be unharmed, my friend, by your counsel.
But my fates were doubtless dragging me to punishment: they close every path of good utility.
§3.6.17sive malum potui tamen hoc vitare cavendo, §3.6.18seu ratio fatum vincere nulla valet, §3.6.19tu tamen, o nobis usu iunctissime longo, §3.6.20pars desiderii maxima paene mei, §3.6.21sis memor, et siquas fecit tibi gratia vires, §3.6.22illas pro nobis experiare, rogo, §3.6.23numinis ut laesi fiat mansuetior ira, §3.6.24mutatoque minor sit mea poena loco, §3.6.25idque ita, si nullum scelus est in pectore nostro, §3.6.26principiumque mei criminis error habet.
Whether, however, I could have avoided this evil by being careful, or whether no reason has the power to conquer fate, you nevertheless, O you most closely joined to us by long usage, almost the greatest part of my longing, be mindful, and if favor has made any strength for you, try those, I ask, on our behalf, so that the anger of the injured deity may become milder, and my punishment may be less, the place being changed, and that in this way, if there is no crime in our heart, and error holds the beginning of my offense.
§3.6.27nec breve nec tutum, quo sint mea, dicere, casu §3.6.28lumina funesti conscia facta mali; §3.6.29mensque reformidat, veluti sua vulnera, tempus §3.6.30illud, et admonitu fit novus ipse pudor, §3.6.31et quaecumque adeo possunt afferre pudorem, §3.6.32illa tegi caeca condita nocte decet,
It is neither brief nor safe to say by what chance my eyes were made conscious of the fatal evil; and my mind dreads that time, just like its own wounds, and at the reminder, shame itself becomes new, and whatever things can bring shame in such a way, it is fitting that those, hidden, be covered by blind night.
§3.6.33nil igitur referam nisi me peccasse, sed illo §3.6.34praemia peccato nulla petita mihi, §3.6.35stultitiamque meum crimen debere vocari, §3.6.36nomina si facto reddere vera velis,
Therefore I shall relate nothing except that I have erred, but that in that error no rewards were sought by me, and that my crime ought to be called foolishness, if you should wish to restore true names to the deed.