§3.8.1Brundisio proficiscens scripseram ad te quas ob causas in Epirum non essemus profecti, quod et Achaia prope esset plena audacissimorum inimicorum et exitus difficilis haberet cum inde proficisceremur.
As I was setting out from Brundisium, I wrote to you for what reasons we had not set out for Epirus, because Achaia also was nearly full of most audacious enemies, and it would have a difficult exit when we set out from there.
accessit cum Dyrrachi essemus ut duo nuntii adferrentur, unus classe fratrem Epheso Athenas, alter pedibus per Macedoniam venire.
It was added, when we were at Dyrrachium, that two messages were brought: one that my brother was coming by fleet from Ephesus to Athens, the other that he was coming on foot through Macedonia.
itaque illi obviam misimus Athenas ut inde Thessalonicam veniret.
Therefore, we sent to meet him at Athens so that he might come from there to Thessalonica.
ipsi processimus et Thessalonicam a. d. x Kal. Iunias venimus neque de illius itinere quicquam certi habebamus nisi eum ab Epheso ante aliquanto profectum.
We ourselves advanced and came to Thessalonica on the tenth day before the Kalends of June, and we had no certain news of his journey except that he had set out from Ephesus some time before.
§3.8.2nunc istic quid agatur magno opere timeo; quamquam tu altera epistula scribis Idibus Maiis audiri fore ut acrius postularetur, altera iam esse mitiora.
Now I greatly fear what is being done there; although you write in one letter that on the Ides of May it was heard that there would be a fiercer prosecution, and in another that things are now milder.
sed haec est pridie data quam illa, quo conturber magis.
But this one was given the day before that one, by which I am more confused.
itaque cum meus me maeror cotidianus lacerat et conficit tum vero haec addita cura vix mihi vitam reliquam facit.
Therefore, while my daily grief tears me apart and wears me out, indeed this added care scarcely leaves life remaining for me.
sed et navigatio perdifficilis fuit et ille incertus ubi ego essem fortasse alium cursum petivit.
But the voyage also was very difficult, and he, uncertain of where I was, perhaps sought another course.
nam Phaetho libertus eum non vidit. vento reiectus ab Ilio in Macedoniam Pellae mihi praesto fuit.
For Phaethon the freedman did not see him; driven back by the wind from Ilium into Macedonia, he was waiting for me at Pella.
reliqua quam mihi timenda sint video nec quid scribam habeo et omnia timeo, nec tam miserum est quicquam quod non in nostram fortunam cadere videatur.
I see how much the remaining things are to be feared by me, nor do I have anything to write, and I fear everything, nor is there anything so wretched that it does not seem likely to fall upon our fortune.
equidem adhuc miser in maximis meis aerumnis et luctibus hoc metu adiecto maneo Thessalonicae suspensus nec audeo quicquam.
Indeed, still wretched in my greatest troubles and griefs, with this fear added, I remain suspended at Thessalonica, nor do I dare anything.
§3.8.3nunc ad ea quae scripsisti.
Now to those things which you wrote.
Tryphonem Caecilium non vidi.
I did not see Trypho Caecilius.
sermonem tuum et Pompei cognovi ex tuis litteris.
I learned of your conversation and Pompey's from your letter.
motum in re publica non tantum ego impendere video quantum tu aut vides aut ad me consolandum adfers.
I do not see a revolution in the republic impending as much as you either see or present for my consolation.
Tigrane enim neglecto sublata sunt omnia.
For since Tigranes has been neglected, everything has been ruined.
Varroni me iubes agere gratias.
You bid me to give thanks to Varro.
faciam; item Hypsaeo.
I will do so; likewise to Hypsaeus.
quod suades ne longius discedamus dum acta mensis Mai. ad nos perferantur, puto me ita esse facturum sed ubi nondum statui; atque ita perturbato sum animo de Quinto ut nihil queam statuere sed tamen statim te faciam certiorem.
As for your advising that we should not depart further until the transactions of the month of May are brought to us, I think I shall do so, but where, I have not yet decided; and I am so troubled in mind about Quintus that I can decide nothing, but nevertheless I will make you certain immediately.
§3.8.4ex epistularum mearum inconstantia puto te mentis meae motum videre qui, etsi incredibili et singulari calamitate adflictus sum, tamen non tam est ex miseria quam ex culpae nostrae recordatione commotus.
From the inconsistency of my letters, I think you see the movement of my mind, which, although I have been afflicted by an incredible and singular calamity, yet is troubled not so much from misery as from the recollection of our fault.
cuius enim scelere impulsi ac proditi simus iam profecto vides, atque utinam iam ante vidisses neque totum animum tuum maerori mecum simul dedisses! qua re cum me adflictum et confectum luctu audies, existimato me stultitiae meae poenam ferre gravius quam eventi, quod ei crediderim quem esse nefarium non putarim.
For by whose crime we have been driven and betrayed you surely now see, and would that you had seen it long before and had not given your whole mind to grief together with me! Therefore, when you hear that I am afflicted and worn out with grief, consider that I bear the punishment for my foolishness more heavily than for the event, because I trusted him whom I did not think to be wicked.
me et meorum malorum memoria et metus de fratre in scribendo impedit.
Both the memory of my evils and fear for my brother prevent me from writing.
tu ista omnia vide et guberna Terentia tibi maximas gratias agit.
You see to all those things and govern them. Terentia gives you her greatest thanks.
litterarum exemplum quas ad Pompeium scripsi misi tibi.
I have sent you a copy of the letter which I wrote to Pompey.
data iiii Kal. Iunias Thessalonicae.
Given on the fourth day before the Kalends of June, at Thessalonica.