§3.25.1post tuum a me discessum litterae mihi Roma adlatae sunt ex quibus perspicio nobis in hac calamitate tabescendum esse.
After your departure from me, letters were brought to me from Rome, from which I perceive that we must waste away in this calamity.
neque enim (sed bonam in partem accipies) si ulla spes salutis nostrae subesset, tu pro tuo amore in me hoc tempore discessisses.
For indeed (but you will take it in good part), if there were any hope of our safety, you, out of your love for me, would not have departed at this time.
sed ne ingrati aut ne omnia velle nobiscum una interire videamur, hoc omitto; illud abs te peto des operam, id quod mihi adfirmasti, ut te ante Kalendas Ianuarias ubicumque erimus sistas.
But lest we should seem ungrateful, or seem to wish that everything should perish together with us, I pass this over; I beg this of you, that you exert yourself—just as you assured me—to present yourself before the Kalends of January, wherever we shall be.