§12.22.1de Terentia quod mihi omne onus imponis, non cognosco tuam in me indulgentiam.
As for Terentia, in that you lay the whole burden upon me, I do not recognize your usual indulgence toward me.
ista enim sunt ipsa vulnera quae non possum tractare sine maximo gemitu.
For those are the very wounds that I cannot touch without the greatest groaning.
moderare igitur, quaeso, ut potes.
Therefore, I beg you, moderate the matter as you can.
neque enim a te plus quam potes postulo.
For I do not demand of you more than you can do.
§12.22.2potes autem quid veri sit perspicere tu unus.
But you alone are able to perceive what the truth is.
de Rutilia quoniam videris dubitare, scribes ad me cum scies sed quam primum, et num Clodia D. Bruto consulari filio suo mortuo vixerit.
Since you seem to be in doubt about Rutilia, you will write to me when you know, and as soon as possible; also, whether Clodia survived her son, the consular Decimus Brutus, after his death.
id de Marcello aut certe de Postumia sciri potest, illud autem de M. Cotta aut de Syro aut de Satyro.
The latter can be known from Marcellus, or at least from Postumia; the former from M. Cotta, or Syrus, or Satyrus.
§12.22.3de hortis etiam atque etiam rogo.
Concerning the gardens, I ask you again and again.
omnibus meis eorumque quos scio mihi non defuturos facultatibus (sed potero meis) enitendum mihi est.
I must exert myself with all my resources and those of the people who I know will not fail me (though I shall be able to do so with my own).
sunt etiam quae vendere facile possim.
There are also things that I could easily sell.
sed ut non vendam eique usuram pendam a quo emero non plus annum, possum adsequi quod volo, si tu me adiuvas.
But even if I do not sell, and pay interest for not more than a year to the person from whom I buy, I can attain what I want, if you help me.
paratissimi sunt Drusi; cupit enim vendere.
Drusus's are most ready; for he desires to sell.
proximos puto Lamiae; sed abest.
I think the next best are Lamia's; but he is away.
tu tamen, si quid potes, odorare.
You, however, sniff out what you can.
ne Silius quidem quicquam utitur et iis† usuris facillime sustentabitur.
Not even Silius makes any use of them, and he will be very easily sustained by †those† interest payments.
habe tuum negotium nec quid res mea familiaris postulet quam ego non curo sed quid velim et cur velim existima.
Make this your business, and consider not what my private estate demands—which I do not care about—but what I want and why I want it.