§5.1.1si vales, benest.
If you are well, it is good.
existimaram pro mutuo inter nos animo et pro reconciliata gratia nec absentem me a te ludibrio laesum in nec Metellum fratrem ob dictum capite ac fortunis per te oppugnatum iri.
I had expected, in view of our mutual affection and our restored friendship, that I, though absent, would not be harmed by you as an object of ridicule, nor that my brother Metellus would be attacked by you in his status and fortune because of a speech.
quem si parum pudor ipsius defendebat, debebat vel familiae nostrae dignitas vel meum studium erga vos remque publicam satis sublevare.
Even if his own self-restraint defended him too little, either the dignity of our family or my devotion to you and to the public interest ought to have supported him sufficiently.
nunc video illum circumventum, me desertum, a quibus minime conveniebat.
Now I see that he has been beset, and I have been abandoned, and that too by those from whom it was least fitting.
§5.1.2itaque in luctu et squalore sum, qui provinciae, qui exercitui praesum, qui bellum gero.
Therefore, I, who govern a province, who command an army, and who conduct a war, am in mourning and squalor.
quae quoniam nec ratione nec maiorum nostrorum clementia administrastis, non erit mirandum, si vos paenitebit.
Since you have administered these matters neither with reason nor with the clemency of our ancestors, it will be no wonder if you come to regret it.
te tam mobili in me meosque esse animo non sperabam.
I did not expect that you would be of so changeable a mind towards me and mine.
me interea nec domesticus dolor nec cuiusquam iniuria ab re p. abducet.
Meanwhile, neither domestic grief nor the injustice of anyone shall lead me away from the public interest.