§12.14.5qua re non puto Pansam et Hirtium in consulatu properaturos in provincias exire sed Romae acturos consulatum.
Therefore, I do not think that Pansa and Hirtius will hasten to go out into the provinces during their consulship, but will conduct their consulship in Rome.
itaque si ab iis petieris ut interea nobis procurationem Asiae dent, spero te posse impetrare.
Therefore, if you request from them that in the meantime they give us the administration of Asia, I hope you will be able to obtain it.
praeterea mihi promiserunt Pansa et Hirtius coram et absenti mihi scripserunt Verrioque nostro Pansa adfirmavit se daturum operam ne in suo consulatu mihi succedatur.
Moreover, Pansa and Hirtius promised me in person and wrote to me in my absence, and Pansa assured our friend Verrius that he would see to it that I should not be succeeded during his consulship.
ego porro non medius fidius cupiditate provinciae produci longius spatium mihi volo; nam mihi fuit ista provincia plena laboris, periculi, detrimenti; quae ego ne frustra subierim nive, prius quam reliquias meae diligentiae consequar, decedere cogar valde laboro.
Furthermore, indeed, heaven is my witness, I do not wish a longer period of time to be extended to me out of any desire for a province; for that province has been full of labor, danger, and loss for me; and I am extremely anxious lest I should have undergone these in vain, or lest I should be forced to depart before I obtain the remnants of my diligence.
nam si potuissem quam exegeram pecuniam universam mittere, postularem ut mihi succederetur; nunc, quod Cassio dedi, quod Treboni morte amisimus, quod etiam crudelitate Dolabellae aut perfidia eorum, qui fidem mihi reique publicae non praestiterunt, id consequi et reficere volo; quod aliter non potest fieri, nisi spatium habuero.
For if I had been able to send the entire sum of money which I had exacted, I would demand that a successor be appointed to me; now, I wish to recover and make up for what I gave to Cassius, what we lost by the death of Trebonius, and also what was lost by the cruelty of Dolabella or the treachery of those who did not keep faith with me and the republic; which cannot be done otherwise, unless I have time.
id ut per te consequar velim, ut solet, tibi curae sit.
I would wish that you take care, as is your custom, that I may obtain this through you.
§12.14.6ego me de re p. puto esse meritum, ut non provinciae istius beneficium exspectare debeam sed tantum quantum Cassius et Bruti non solum illius facti periculique societate sed etiam huius temporis studio et virtute.
I think I have deserved so well of the republic that I ought not to expect merely the favor of that province, but as much as Cassius and the Bruti, not only by association in that deed and danger, but also by the zeal and virtue of this present time.
primus enim ego leges Antonias fregi, primus equitatum Dolabellae ad rem p. traduxi Cassioque tradidi, primus dilectus habui pro salute omnium contra coniurationem sceleratissimam, solus Cassio et rei p. Syriam exercitusque qui ibi erant coniunxi; nam nisi ego tantam pecuniam tantaque praesidia et tam celeriter Cassio dedissem, ne ausus quidem esset ire in Syriam et nunc non minora pericula rei p. a Dolabella instarent quam ab Antonio.
For I was the first to break the Antonian laws, the first to transfer Dolabella's cavalry to the republic and deliver them to Cassius, the first to hold levies for the safety of all against a most wicked conspiracy, and I alone joined Syria and the armies that were there to Cassius and the republic; for unless I had given so much money and such great garrisons, and so quickly, to Cassius, he would not even have dared to go into Syria, and now dangers no less great would threaten the republic from Dolabella than from Antony.
§12.14.7atque haec omnia is feci qui sodalis et familiarissimus Dolabellae eram, coniunctissimus sanguine Antoniis, provinciam quoque illorum beneficio habebam, sed patri/da e)mh\n ma=llon filw=n omnibus meis bellum primus indixi.
And all these things I did, though I was an associate and most intimate friend of Dolabella, very closely related by blood to the Antonii, and also held my province by their benefit; but "loving my country more" (patri/da e)mh ma=llon filw=n), I was the first to declare war on all my own people.
haec etsi adhuc non magno opere mihi tulisse fructum animadverto, tamen non despero nec defetigabor permanere non solum in studio libertatis sed etiam in labore et periculis.
Although I notice that these things have not yet brought me much fruit, nevertheless I do not despair, nor will I grow weary of persevering not only in the zeal for liberty, but also in labor and dangers.
at tamen, si etiam aliqua gloria iusta et merita provocabimur senatus et optimi cuiusque officiis, maiore cum auctoritate apud ceteros erimus et eo plus prodesse rei p. poterimus.
But yet, if we are also stimulated by some just and deserved glory through the kind offices of the senate and of all the best men, we shall hold greater authority among the rest, and thereby be able to benefit the republic more.
§12.14.8filium tuum, ad Brutum cum veni, videre non potui, ideo is quod iam in hiberna cum equitibus erat profectus, sed medius fidius ea esse eum opinione et tua et ipsius et in primis mea causa gaudeo; fratris enim loco mihi est qui ex te natus teque dignus est.
Your son, when I came to Brutus, I was not able to see, for the reason that he had already set out for winter quarters with the cavalry; but, heaven is my witness, I rejoice that he is in such high estimation, both for your sake, and his own, and especially for my own; for he is in the place of a brother to me, who was born of you and is worthy of you.
vale.
Farewell.
D. iiii K. Iun. Pergae.
Given on the 4th day before the Kalends of June, at Perga.