§11.10.1non mihi rem p. plus debere arbitror quam me tibi.
I do not think the republic owes more to me than I owe to you.
gratiorem me esse in te posse, quam isti perversi sint in me, exploratum habes †sit an hoc temporis videatur dici causat, malle me tuum iudicium quam ex altera parte omnium istorum;
You know for certain—even if at this time there seems to be a reason for saying so—that I can be more grateful towards you than those perverse men are towards me, and that I prefer your judgment to that of all those others on the other side.
tu enim a certo sensu et vero iudicas de nobis; quod isti ne faciant summa malevolentia et livore impediuntur.
For you judge of us from a reliable and true feeling; which those men are prevented from doing by the greatest malevolence and envy.
interpellent me quo minus honoratus sim, dum ne interpellent quo minus res p. a me commode administrari possit.
Let them obstruct me from being honored, provided they do not obstruct the republic from being successfully administered by me.
quae quanto sit in periculo quam potero brevissime exponam.
How great a danger she is in, I will explain as briefly as I can.
§11.10.2primum omnium quantam perturbationem rerum urbanarum adferat obitus consulum quantamque cupiditatem hominibus iniciat vacuitas non te fugit.
First of all, it does not escape you how much confusion in city affairs the death of the consuls brings, and how much ambition the vacancy inspires in men.
satis me multa scripsisse, quae litteris commendari possint, arbitror; scio enim cui scribam.
I think I have written enough things that can be committed to a letter; for I know to whom I am writing.
§11.10.3revertor nunc ad Antonium.
I return now to Antony.
qui ex fuga cum parvulam manum peditum haberet inermium, ergastula solvendo omneque genus hominum abripiendo satis magnum numerum videtur effecisse.
Who, although after his flight he had only a very small band of unarmed infantry, seems to have gathered a sufficiently large number by breaking open the slave-prisons and carrying off every class of men.
hoc accessit manus Ventidi, quae trans Appenninum itinere facto difficillimo ad Vada pervenit atque ibi se cum Antonio coniunxit.
To this was added the band of Ventidius, which, having made a most difficult journey across the Apennines, reached Vada and there joined Antony.
est numerus veteranorum et armatorum satis frequens cum Ventidio.
There is a quite numerous force of veterans and armed men with Ventidius.
§11.10.4consilia Antoni haec sint necesse est, aut ad Lepidum ut se conferat, si recipitur, aut Appennino Alpibusque se teneat et decursionibus per equites, quos habet multos, vastet ea loca in quae incurrerit, aut rusus se in Etruriam referat, quod ea pars Italiae sine exercitu est.
Antony's plans must be these: either to betake himself to Lepidus, if he is received, or to keep himself in the Apennines and the Alps, and, by incursions of his cavalry, of which he has many, to lay waste those places into which he runs, or to return again to Etruria, because that part of Italy is without an army.
quod si me Caesar audisset atque Appenninum transisset, in tantas angustias Antonium compulissem, ut inopia potius quam ferro conficeretur.
And if Caesar had listened to me and crossed the Apennines, I would have driven Antony into such straits that he would have been destroyed by want rather than by the sword.
sed neque Caesari imperari potest nec Caesar exercitui suo, quod utrumque pessimum est Cum haec talia sint, quo minus, quod ad me pertinebit, homines interpellent, ut supra scripsi, non impedio.
But neither can Caesar be commanded, nor can Caesar command his army, both of which are worst. Since things are as they are, I do not hinder men, as I wrote above, from obstructing what concerns me.
haec quem ad modum explicari possint aut, a te cum explicabuntur, ne impediantur timeo.
But how these matters can be disentangled, or, when they are disentangled by you, lest they should be obstructed, I fear.
§11.10.5alere iam milites non possum.
I can no longer feed my soldiers.
Cum ad rem p. liberandam accessi, HS mihi fuit pecuniae cccc amplius.
When I set about liberating the republic, I had more than forty million sesterces.
tantum abest ut meae rei familiaris liberum sit quicquam, ut omnis iam meos amicos aere alieno obstrinxerim.
So far is any of my private property from being free, that I have already bound all my friends in debt.
septem numerum nunc legionum alo, qua difficultate tu arbitrare; non, si Varronis thensauros haberem, subsistere sumptui possem.
I am now feeding seven legions—with what difficulty, you may judge; even if I had the treasures of Varro, I could not withstand the expense.
Cum primum de Antonio exploratum habuero, faciam te certiorem.
As soon as I have certain news of Antony, I will inform you.
tu me amabis ita, si hoc idem me in te facere senseris.
You will love me on this condition, if you perceive that I do this very same thing towards you.
III non. Mai. ex castris Dertona.
May 5th, from the camp at Dertona.